Hospital Collection: Saving J

I had a terrifying nightmare that Jeremy shot himself,
and I couldn't stop it.
He told me to go to the stairway to heaven,
so I climbed onto the roof of TAFE
(which was where I was before I was
taken to hospital by the police).
Then he looked at me, and smiled
and shot himself in the mouth.
I jumped off the roof to try and reach him
before he could pull the trigger
but I was too late
and I cried and cried
and my spine was broken.
I woke up screaming and started trying to call the hospital
before I realised that I'm not in hospital anymore.

Jeremy was one of the patients with me in Northside Psychiatric Unit in hospital.
He told me he would take me to the stairway to heaven
one day when we were in hospital,
so I think that's what I was remembering
but it twisted in my head with the suicide attempt.
It was absolutely horrifying.

I had to write this to get it out of my head
because the images and feelings are still there.